Last Day of 2012

I can't believe the year 2012 is almost gone.  Seems like we just celebrated a new year and boom! it's gone already. 

I will say that I messed up with New Year's Resoluations last year.  I seem to be eager to start a new way of life, i.e. declutter and organize, yet I poop out along the way after awhile.  But, I must keep my eye on the prize which is a more comfortable surrounding. 

If I had to pick two words this year to define me, it has to be DECLUTTER and ORGANIZE. That's going to be my mission this year.  :)

I've also already started working on crochet afghans for my bil's nursing home ministry.  I want to get at least 15 done this year.  

I also think this year I'd like to join a crochet group or something.  A co-ed Bible group would be nice, but so many at church are either men or women's group.  Sometimes, however, I get tired of hearing women's point of view and I like to see things from the man's point of view.  I do really 'love' Jon Courson's teaching.  He is the pastor of ApplegateFellowship Church in Oregon.  I think I mentioned before that I've first started listening to him in the 80's or 90's on the radio.  Then one day I turned on the radio for my Bible lesson and he was no longer on there.  I was so disappointed.  However, I just started listening to him again and watching his videos and I get so much from him.  He has a lesson on Revelation, too and he simplifies so much.  

I've also have been debating whether or not to use my family's real names when blogging.  I have decided to go ahead and do so because they are all over the internet anyway.   So with that being said,  my dd Meghan hosted a family Christmas party yesterday and it was great fun.  It's very nice to have family around once in awhile, especially those you don't see too often.  

I need to go and get some sleep as it's 5:04am.  I'm a night owl...while the rest of the family sleeps I'm up.  I've always been that way..don't know why.  But my dad worked night work...he couldn't adjust to working in the daytime so I think it's a gene I inherited from him. LOL

Blessings,

BeKay

I just wanted to drop in here to say that I had a great Christmas.  I'm almost back to my old self which is good.  The kids were here this afternoon  to open presents and my son gave me a Samsung note which I'm typing on right now. It's awesome.  I can keep this little thing in my room.  My lap top is usually in the family room because I like to play games on it, but when I come to bed I like to listen to Jon Courson who is the pastor at Applegate Fellowship and I lik to watch his videos.  I was doing all that on my ipod which was  okay as long as I had my magnifying glasses on (haha), but this little table is great for seeing the screen.  Also, I don't have to keep dragging my laptop from one room to another (am I lazy or what?).  I thank my son  for getting me the note and husband for the keyboard.  

And my beautiful daughter got me a firepit!  Now,  what was I saying about my homemade fire pit I made from an old grill for the husband's birthday in October?  And so I asked if anyone wanted to go make a fire they said no.  Well, geez!  Hahah  I can't wait to make some fire outside and have fun. 

I've already thought about New Year's resoluations.  Actually, this year I'm sorta excited about them.  No like me at all; but I think getting my life back on track like I used to be a long time ago I will be happier way down in my soul.

Blessings!

Feeling Better, but...

Well, I'm feeling a little better today, but not totally back to my old self.  I'm still tired and would rather just stay in bed then to get up and get things done.  But, I won't..stay in bed, that is. 

On Friday dd has her company Christmas party in Virginia and she invited her daddy to go with her this year.  Dd has invited her brother, me and now her daddy.  How exciting she can do that.  For dh's Christmas party he was able to take both dd and dds, so that was exciting for them, too. 

I wanted to go to ICE at the harbor center this year.  Last year was awesome.  This year's theme is Shrek...ds loves Shrek.  Hopefully we can schedule it so he can go, too.  With him being a police officer and on shift work we never know when he'll be able to spend time with us.  When you go through the ice show it is 9 degrees...so cold, but you get this huge blue parkas to wear.  I have a problem with them because they just came off other people and I'm sort of a germ person, so I have to just concentrate on being warm and not on what I have on if that makes sense. 

This is all done in ice..so beautiful and interesting for sure.  Love it.  Yeah, it cost $$ to get in but it's a winter wonderland.

I haven't baked any cookies or goodies so far, but hoping to get that done with weekend.  I need to get to the store for some eggs and other stuff.  I have to wait until payday, though.

I have gotten almost all my Christmas cards out.  I have one more to send and a birthday card.  Will do that tonight.

I think I might have spaghetti supplies in my cabinet for dinner tonight.  Will probably make that when dh gets home.

Blessings,

Bekay

I am Sick, Again

This has been a rough year for me.  I am sick again.  I have pharyngitis and am on antibiotic.  Now my nose is totally stuffed up and I have a sinus headache.  When there is so much to do trying to get last minute stuff together.  GRR 

The shooting at Sandy Hook is a tragedy.  I have lost a child due to a terminal illness and I know the feeling of lost.  It doesn't matter how a child is lost; a parent shouldn't have to bury a child, period.  But what people don't understand that somewhere in their neighborhood thousands of children are being killed even before birth and that's what makes this a tragedy, to me.  Obama, on the one hand is saying these children who were killed had their whole lives ahead of them.  But on the other hand he is in bed with Planned Parenthood supporting them to kill children.  Obama even said that he wouldn't want his daughters in an unwanted pregnancy and basically said he would want them to abort.  Now, how can you believe a person who is supporting Planned Parenthood yet goes to a town whose children were slaughtered and talk like it's such a shame?  Stupid.  This is why the world is messed up (including the people in it!).

Well, I better get busy getting things done around here.  I go laundry and dishes and presents to complete.   

Money Envelopes {the originals}

With the hipe of the Dave Ramsey's cash envelopes, I just wanted you to know who the person was that invented this concept {as far as I'm aware of}.  Larry Burkett, who was a Christian financial person and who had Christian Financial Concepts which turned into Crown Ministries is the one who had financial envelopes. 

This is a picture of his envelopes.  I have one of them.  Years ago I bought one for my daughter who wasn't interested in using it.  But when dh and I took the Dave Ramsey Financial Peace University course and we would tell dd about how to budget, etc and that Dave offered the envelope concept, dd dug out her envelope system from Larry Burkett.  And she is still using it to this day.  This is what is really keeping her on track!! 

Larry Burkett was a great man.  He never bought anything new, especially cars.  He always bought used.  Dave Ramsey has taken Larry's concepts and remarketed them and now people think he's the one who came up with this idea.  It's not.  I just wanted to give Larry Burkett the credit.  Larry passed away from cancer years ago, but he wrote some great books on money.  He had a radio show that was called Money Matters.  It was a great show. 

Crown now has this concept of the money map.  Again, they had the money map before Dave Ramsey.  I'm not slamming Ramsey, just saying that he remarketed what Larry Burkett already had. 

This Christmas Season I'm Getting Ready

Here is our Christmas tree this year.  And it's just fine with me!  Our dd had her Bible Group ladies here last weekend for their Christmas get-together and she needed a tree for her living room.  "Take our tree, I told her.  And so she did!  She bought her own bulbs for it and made it a country Christmas tree and to tell you the truth that tree never looked so good!  Call me a scrooge, but the thought of dragging out the tree, decorations and fighting with the lights to get them to work was tiring to me.  :)  So I'm just fine with having a little tree that still lights up and looks good, yet I can put in a box when the season is over and put in the closet.  And we are having Christmas morning at dd's place (downstairs), so that's fine, too. 

I have been making my own Christmas cards.  It's a great way to recycle last year's cards.  I love reusing things such as these and love doing the crafty thing, too.  It's fun.  This year I'm not stressing out and working a little at a time on it.  I'm halfway through making them, got some shopping done, too so I'm way ahead of the game.  Oh, and I also mailed off a Christmas packaged for my great nephews which I usually mail late and the presents usually arrive after Christmas.  So I'm feeling good about myself right now.

Tomorrow night dh is taking dd and ds to his Christmas party.  I'm hoping they have a great time and make memories!!  Last year dd took dd to his Christmas party and she ended up winning the grand prize--a 42" flat screen hd tv!!  We couldn't believe it but at a time in her life when she needed something nice this is what she got!  It was exciting and awesome and the hundreds of people that were at the party were all jealous of her.  Hahah.  They all wanted the grand prize! 

On another note, you might remember my sad story about my purple car last year.  Well, dh uses it for work, however, the other day he came home and said the brake lines were leaking and so it got parked until we get enough money to get the brake lines.  Then last Tues dh called me from work to tell me his truck, which he was driving to work, broke a water hose and so that truck is now parked.  So, guess who is home stuck without a vehicle AGAIN??  History likes to repeat itself, doesn't it? 

I wondered if something else was gonna break down (Murphy's law, right) and sure enough the dishwasher decided to stop washing the dishes.  *sigh*  Poor dh, he's beginning to feel overwhelmed.

                 

Thanksgiving 2012

Dh and I stayed home today for Thanksgiving even though we were invited to my brother's home.  I just didn't feel up to visiting with people so dh and I enjoyed the quiet today and had our own little dinner:

I bought a turkey breast instead of a whole turkey this year.  We'll have plenty left over for sandwiches.  I haven't cooked the pie yet; probably will tonight or tomorrow. 

The kids did go to their uncle's and got to spend time with their cousins.  I'm glad they had a great time.  It's not often they get to spend time with family.  Everyone is just so busy these days..it's such a shame.

I'm gonna go hit on some leftovers, now that I mentioned it!  Heheh

Another Birthday and more...

We've had another birthday here.  It's dh's.  This is the last year of his 50's.  I can hardly believe it.  Life and time flies by, it really does.  So here are some birthday pictures:



I wanted to get a fire pit, but they are too much for me to pay at the store.  I tried to come up with another idea and I realized I had an old grill I hadn't used in awhile.  So I dug a hole and buried the grill halfway into the ground and covered it up.  It became sturdy and was at the right height for us to sit and roast hot dogs.  The wood was free as we lived next to the woods or you could say we live in the woods.

Dh got plenty of presents and I think he enjoyed his birthday. 

Right now hurricane Sandy is outside; well, we are not in the middle of it, but it's causing a rainy, windy mess.  However, so far so good..we still have our electricity and that's a big plus, believe me.

Dd and I went out today in the wind and rain to have our nails done.  I do not usually do this because I'm scared of getting a nail fungus. I've heard of horror stories about nail palors.  But, I broke down today.  Dd and I did not have to wait.  We walked right in and got taken care of!  I got shelac nail tips with orange on them:

I have to get used to working with them now. 

I've been working on a biker back patch.  I'm making one representative of the unborn.  When I get it done, I'll post it.

That's it for now...

Meeting an Actress at the Catherine Foundation

Dh, dd and I had the honor of meeting an actress who gave her testimony about her abortion at the Catherine Foundation Banquet last night.  It was awesome.  Shari Rigby has played on the Young and the Restless and some other shows, but she has recently starred in a movie called October Baby.  If nobody has see it, y can get it at the Christian Bookstore or probably any video store now.  I won't tell you the plot of the movie in case you want to see it, but it was based off the life of Gianna Jensen; a woman who survived being aborted. 

The food was very good, too. Really enjoyed the roast beef, fish, mashed potatoes, green beans, salad and bread and butter!  Delicious!



This month has been Kid's Birthday Month.  How strange it is that both my youngest kids were born in September. My ds was due on September 5, but he decided to wait until the 27th to be born.  And then, my daughter did the same thing.  She was due August the 12th but waited until September the 6th.  And I knew exactly when I got pregnant with both so there was no miscalculations on the dates.  How ob care has changed since the '80's.  We didn't get sonograms unless something was wrong with the pregnancy.  We didn't know the sex of the baby, either. 

Here are a few pictures of dd's birthday:

Dd wanted tacos for her birthday dinner.

Brothers always buy the best presents! (Tom Tom)





And here is ds's birthday:

We went out for pizza at Centrone's.

Where has the time gone??

Roy Rogers the Restaurant

This town used to have a Roy Rogers Restaurant.  Oh it was so nice to drive right down the street to get a holster of french fries and a burger.  I love Roy Rogers burgers.  But then one day RR closed it's doors and the nearest one was almost an hour away in LaPlata, MD.  And only once in awhile we'd go there when the mood struck.  Then, they closed their doors!  Now, the closes Roy Roger is about an hour and a half or so away.  Today the RR Bugs struck me.  I wanted to go for a ride and thought RR's would be good for dinner and so off we went. 

After eating we went further down the road to the water. 

When the Ice Cream Cravings Strike...

Yummy!!

Friday Night at the County Fair!

Just about every year we go to the county fair.  It's the oldest fair in Maryland...celebrating it's 170th birthday this year.  Since the fair almost always starts on dd's birthday {9-6}, it was kinda birthday thing we did for dd.  But dh's and my anniversary is on the 9th {34 years this year!} so going to the fair kinda celebrates two birds with one stone.  Hahah.  Tonight we went.  Dh's cousin works the fair and whenever he sees us we get in for free.  That's awesome! 

First thing we did tonight at the fair was to get our fair hot dogs.  I always have to get one.  I don't really know why I think those hot dogs taste better than any others. 

I always enjoy looking at the crafts and picking up information about our county services. We usually get free pens, pencils, bag clips which are very useful items around here.  This year we got a lot of nicer stuff than we've gotten before.  Dh got a free wind up flashlight; I got a alarm/calculator clock, reusable bags and all the usual pens, pencils, bag clips...all for free!  I love free things. 

Starting Over

I bought a book today of how to destress your life...little things you can do to get rid of the junk that eats at you (and the people that hate on you).  As I was reading through it just brought things that I used to do when dh and I was first married.  When one gets married they have the whole world as a slate...dreams, goals, etc.  On the other end of being married for so long, all those things are behind ya.  But by acomplishing all those dreams and goals comes junk with it.  And slowly, one loses who they were and little things in life that made them happy.  What I'm saying is that dh and I used to walk through the woods behind our house and scratch things on trees when we were newlyweds.  Now, dh is handicapped and can hardly walk, so we don't do that anymore.  It's those little things such as this that I talk about.  But, those are the things that were enjoyable and over the years have come to a close.  It's like waking up one day and finding yourself in another world.  It's like what happened?

So I was thinking about I was reading through this book how nice it would be to just get back to the basics of life.  For instead, I used grow a large garden and can my food.  I don't do it anymore.  I used to sew my kids clothes...I don't do that anymore because they are grown now.  I used to be sufficient; never really buying things I could grow or make myself, but that's not me anymore.  I have lost myself.

As I read through this book, I wanna get back to ME!  I need to shake of the dust and find ME underneath!

Blessings,

Bekay

When People Hate on You

In elementary school it's not unusual for friends to come and go.  When you're older you expect it.  But when you're an adult and have been good friends with people, then out of the blue they hate on you, it's leaves you in a whirlwind.  And it not only happens with friends, I've recently had family hate on me, too.  This is why I've never had real friends.  It will always end up with them hating on me. 

Friends who claim to be Christian disturbs me more than family members who don't know the Lord.  Christians are suppose to be able to work out their differences then move on.  Never happens that way, though.  They are the worse ones that WON'T talk it out when a disagreement happens.  It's worse when they lie and won't admit they lied.  But you know what?  The truth will always come out sooner or later.  And that's why I don't let lies that ex-friends tell bother me. 

So for now I leave it all in the hands of the Lord.  He'll deal with those who distort the truth. 

Blessings,

Bekay

Hello Y'all!

I know I've been absent for a long time.  I finally got over my strep.  Days in bed, depression; it's hard to get up and get living again when depression sets in.  I'm really a shell of who I was in my younger days. With small children my life was full of activities and places to go and things to do.  These days, not so much.  I have struggled to go places even for my own pleasure such as shopping or whatever.  But the thing with me is that I've never really gone places by myself.  I know that's sad to say, but I went from living with my parents and siblings to being married and having a husband to do things with.  And then the children came along and then I had them to go places with so I've never really done things on my own, by myself.  For example, I've never been to the beach by myself, ever. I've never driven long distances by myself.  I realize how sheltered and how much I stay in my comfort zone.  However, by doing that {living in a comfort zone} I feel like I'm not living a life that I could be living. 

I'm going to try and turn over a new leaf.  I have to or I'll go crazy...not literally.  There comes a time in one's life where they have to take the bull by the horns, you know? 

So on another note, our dd got moved into the basement.  I did mention we have been renovating the basement for the last year, doing all the work ourselves, and dd got moved in last month.  Of course there is still  little things that need doing such as trim work and we just had the kitchen counter tops installed.  They look beautiful.  I'll post pictures as soon as the kitchen it done. 

Here are before and after pictures of the bathroom:






Bathroom before



New toilet, floor and moulding with marble trim around the shower

New bathroom sink, mirror and lights

New shower

Dd unpacking her bathroom stuff

It's exciting to see what was compared to the what now, knowing all the hard, hard work that we've done to get here.  Poor dh, he dd ALOT of the work, but oh my...the arguing that we always do when we are working on a project is crazy.  I watch this show called Renovation Realities and it makes me laugh so hard sometimes because that is dh and me when we are doing a project. 

We've lived in this house for 34 years.  We've built a family room, a garage and master bedroom.  Dh did all the work himself.  Of course, I've done what I could when I could and after all those projects {ooops; we've also redone the kitchen a couple of times because of water leakage} so we've been through tons of major home improvement projects together.  With renovating the basement I've learned when I get to that point of explosion I need to walk away from it.  That helps me and helps dh! LOL

It's no secret that my life has been off track for years.  I do the bare necessities in the house.  It's sad but true, but I really want to start living the life I had before; before depression hit me and my thyroid went way downhill. 

Therefore, I'm putting together a home management binder with daily goals.  I've youtubed a lot of videos on it, but the more I'm figuring what I want to put in it the more I think it's a personal planner for me.  Since I don't really have kids and dh could care less about looking into a notebook for personal goals, I'm thinking it's not going to be a home management binder than more a personal goal book for me.  Just throwing around some ideas in my head.  We'll see how this turns out!

Blessings,

BeKay 

Coughing Now!

 This is me!!  I'm coughing and having coughing fits so bad I well...you know.  This is horrible.  I'm tired of all of this.  And I have jury duty this week...well, I have to see if I have jury duty.  This is why I hate getting sick.  I'm not one of those positive people who can shrug off things.  When things happen to me I go into a tailspin.  I don't know why I'm like that, I just am.  Dd and I were talking about this tonight.  We were talking about the boy who had his arm chewed off by an alligator, yet has a great positive respond.  He says he's glad it wasn't his friend.  I WISH I was like that. 

There is more stuff I'd like to post, but I'm still coughing and mentally can't get my thoughts together.  Will post when I feel better.

Oh my....sick again!

Life is getting messy again.  The last three weeks I've been coughing and the left side of my throat has hurt.  I have jury duty next week (that's another story) and I don't want to sit there and cough my head off, although, I'm having faith in God that my number won't show up and I won't even have to show up.  But, I went to the emergency clinic last week hoping they could give me something to clear up my cough, the dr said it was allergies and told me to take over the counter allergy meds.  Now, before I went to the clinic I had already made an appointment with my regular doctor but they couldn't get me in (so they say) for four days.  That's why I went to the emergency clinic.  Thank goodness I did not cancel my gp's appointment.  I went in yesterday; by this time my nose was running life a faucet; I was (am) miserable.  They did a throat culture and I came up positive for strep.  I don't get strep throat....but on my goodness.  Who would have thought?  Today I have a headache and chills, sweating...I don't have time for this. 

So I just wanted to check in..will write more later when I'm feeling up to it.

Well, Well, Well, Yes, it's Me Again!

It's funny how time flies...it really is.  The older I get the more one day runs into the next. 

I can give a report on my container garden and well, it's kind of a failure.  The poor cucumbers and squash have just about shrivelled up.  I have two tiny cucumbers in my frig right now, but I'm really disappointed.  I watered those plants everyday, too.  They had the best soil, sun light, so I don't know why they have no done well.  And my pepper plants are about two feet tall and no peppers.  Strange.  My neighbors plants are about the same way.  The plants are beautiful, but no veggies.  Go figure. I'll have to take a picture of them tomorrow. 

I think I might have mentioned that dd is moving into our basement apartment and we have been renovating since the first of the year.  We are still behind in the renovations and we have only two weeks left until she moves in.  Our floor came for the kitchen but it was the wrong floor.  Crazy.  So instead of waiting ten days for the floor it's gonna be twenty days.  I've done about all I can to help, but now it's up to dh to do stuff because I don't have the knowledge.  *sigh*

I've been watching some youtube videos and why do people say 'umm' so much??  When they are explaining something why don't they just say what they wanna say??  Annoying! 

I wanna to check in..will post pictures of the renovations soon.

A Little Update

I wanted to give a little update on things.  First here are pictures of my container garden:

Onions

Onions and cucumbers





peppers



Squash

Results, Daughter, and Son

What an experience!  I'm so glad that is over.  So my results are this:  I have diverticulitis (which I knew about), and to my surprise they also went down my throat and found I have gastritis.  That might explain why my stomach hurts all the time!  The doc said there were a few places he took a biopsy from, but he did not think it was cancer.  But I have to mak an appointment to see him in two weeks.  Good news is that I don't have to have another colonoscopy for 10 years!  Isn't that awesome??  Now, anybody who's had to drink that solution...oh my gosh....awful.  I praise God that He helped me get that stuff down.  I had no gagging and mentally I prepared myself that I can do this.  The first bottle of solution I got down; near the last few swallows was hard, but I did it.  When six hours later I had to drink the next bottle of stuff, well, my mind was starting to freak out, but I ask God to help me and He did.  And it wasn't so bad.  God is good!

Daughter has has the stomach flu for the last couple of days.  When I talked to her last night she really sounded she was 'out of it' and I knew she needed someone there to help her.  She didn't know if she had a fever because she didn't have a therometer.  So I packed up some stuff and off I went to her house.  She did have a fever of 100.7.  Some Tylenol and cool rag to her head and making her drink liquids got her fever down.  Also, her condo was a little warm, so I turned down the ac a little.  Today she has been complaining of stomach issues more.  If we can just get her stomach feeling better she'll be her old self again.  After spending the night with her last night at her place, she came home with me today. 

While we were at dd's apartment, my ds called and asked us if we wanted some subs.  Awesome.  I was hungry, so he brought us some food!  Ds had bought new glasses but he was so unhappy with them as they kept slipping down his nose and he had gone back to have them adjusted, but they just couldn't get the glasses adjusted right.  I suggested he go to the mall where there's another store.  Well, they were very helpful and he found a pair of frames that were so much better; he got those and he was so happy! 

Poor dh has been home all day by himself working and doing chores around the house.  He is worn out. 

And, can you believe that I got another notice for jury duty?  I get these things every year and a half.  The last three I have been able to get a doctor's note to excuse me, but how many times can I keep doing this?  GRR!

So that's where I'm at right now.

Tomorrow, tomorrow...

Well, actually it's today.  Yes, I will be undergoing a colonoscopy.  I am so ready to get this over with.  I got down the two bottles of yuck that I had to drink and here it is 2:34am and I still have to hit the pot.  No sleep this morning.   I just hope I don't have any issues when it's time to leave in the morning.

More Container Gardening

Here is more of my container garden:

Onions



more onions

and more onions

cucumbers

more cucumbers

My Container Garden and Mother's Day

I'm trying a new thing this year..container gardening.  After much consideration about where to put the garden and thinking of the weeding I'd have to do AND having to fight off groundhogs and deer, I decided to put all my 'food' in containers.  Here I have strawberries, squash and peppers.  I will take pictures tomorrow of my onions and cucumbers.  I water them every day and so far so good!!  We already eat a strawberry off the plant and it was juicy and delicious.  Oh, I hope we get some more off them. 

Tonight my son surprised me showing up and giving me some gifts.  I really didn't expect it because I told the kids not to make a big deal about Mother's Day.  I know they love me as I love them.  But still, it was nice.  My husband gave me a light set of dragon flys.  Very cute; now I have to decide where to put them!   

Did I Tell You....

Did I tell you I had a birthday last month?  Yeah, I am 55...no shame there.  But, I just can't believe I'm that number.  Wow!  Okay, with that said, you know how you turn a 'whatever' age and then things start happening to your body....it just seems your body KNOWS you turned another year older and then it had has to do things it's never, ever done before and you say 'what's going on here?' and it makes you concern, worried, anxious??....well, that's been happening to me.  Got my tooth pulled {and my mouth is still recooping from it} while my other teeth hurt and then something happened that is kinda personal but just let me tell you I'm having an colonoscopy in two weeks.  Okay, I was advised to have one five years ago but I didn't and now I HAVE to.  *sigh*  In younger days if thing happened to you physically, you'd recovery and be on your way.  These days, not so much.   These are not the golden years and I don't know who ever came up with that phrase.  But I have to thank God for the blessings I do have and I'm able to do things other can't.  That's why I keep pushing on. 

Does the Word Dentist Make You Cringe?

That's where I was today.  I've had this tooth that is broken and it's been giving me trouble.  However, the tooth behind it had a hole in it (from an attempt to fix it four years ago, but failed) and to make a long story short I ended up having that tooth pulled.  Now, after about 7 shots to my jaw, gums and other places in my mouth the dentist was unable to numb my mouth!!  She finally gives me sleepy gas, but let me just say that if you aren't breathing through your nose to inhale that stuff you aren't going to stay floating in the clouds.  Now, since the tooth with the hole in it showed to have a somewhat infection in it, the dentist believed that it was that tooth was really giving me problems.  I opted to have it pulled because I'm just sick of having root canals....the pain from those things go on for days and weeks if that work at all.  So after all the shots and sleepy stuff, I had the tooth pulled with all the pain that comes with it.  Let me tell you, it was painful!!!  Hearing the tooth cracking in my jaw and the dentist moving it back and forth, back and forth in my jaw was agonizing!!  My legs were thrashing, my arms were hitting the chair, and my voice was quite loud.  Well, the voice I had while floating in the clouds.  Honestly, I think I have to put that pain  at the same level as childbirth.  It was horribly painful.  Now it feels as if I've been hit in the jaw with a fist.  And...I'm not even sure the right tooth came out.  Because the one I wanted pull is now throbbing like before.  Unreal.  It's be one thing if the teeth were eye teeth, but these are my molars...I'll be eating baby food before too much longer if I get another molar out on the same side of my mouth.  So after that, I came home, put an ice pack on my jaw, took a nap, woke up, more ice, then Motrin, then another nap...oh my goodness..I need my mother!!!

I hope tomorrow will be better.  It's raining right now.  I got my window open and listening to the rain is so relaxing!   

That's it for the update.

Wow, Where Have I Been?

Busy and tired...hahaha.  Basically every night dh and I are in the basement renovating.  Since dd is moving in we decided that the walls in the basement needed insulating (since the person who 'finished' the basement before we bought the house didn't put insulation in the walls) we've had to tear down all the outside walls and put in insulation.  Also, the bathroom needed a redo-and therefore, dh had to repipe and tear up the bathroom floor.  What a job it's been!  But I'm happy to say that we got al the insulation up, the walls up and we've started to mud the walls.  However, we still got the shower enclosure to put up, the floors to do, the kitchen cabinets and when we are done with that we have the bedroom to start on.  I'm starting to feel a time crunch because dd has to be out of her condo before Aug. 1st.  It's just dh and me working on the basement (and we are no professionals), so I'm praying the work we do will be nice.  The worse we part with building rooms (we've added a couple to our home) is mudding the walls.  We are sooo bad at that. The finish work is really what counts on a wall after all. 

Since I've last wrote, I've had another birthday.  It's hard to believe how old one gets...What does 55 feel like?  I don't know...the body has more aches that it used to, but inside, the soul of me is still young.  I'm thinking this how it must be when we get to heaven.  We are young in heaven.  That's awesome!

Another incident has happened is that ds called me late one night...he was sick.  He was running 102.5 fever and he was a little delirious, too.  I ran him up to the 'emergency' hospital where they said he had the flu and gave him tamiflu.  I wasn't so sure he had the flu, but once he started on the tamiflu and the motrin he was feeling better.  Then a couple days after that dd called from work and said she felt like she was going to pass out.  She said she had to get up and go to another room, but didn't think she could make it.  I told her to take her c-phone with her and then a few minutes later, she called me, said, 'mom' and then a co-worker came on the phone.  She told me dd wasn't doing so good and they wanted to call the ambulance, but that dd didn't want them to.  I told them to call...the hospital is right across the street from her work.  What ended up happening was that dd took two cough medicines that had the same meds in it and so it was like overdosing.  She feels so stupid for doing that, thank goodness it wasn't a fatal overdose.  THAT would have been awful.  And so that was my week two weeks ago.

The week before that happened we took our beagle to the vets.  She ate, then threw up and then it appeared that she couldn't breath/catch her breath.  This was a midnight so we took her to the emergency vets.  I just hope all the emergency runs are done!  Hahahah.

The weather has been really strange.  Cold, hot...today we are having rain.  We need it, and besides, April showers bring May flower, but it's been warm enough that flowers have already been blooming. 

I am just now starting to think of where to put our vegetable garden.  I'm a little behind in this, but I hope this week I can get the ground tilled and plants in. 

We'll that's it for now....

Time For An Update

Hey, ya'll.  It's time for an update.  Last night I spent time with dd at her house.  We had fun.  We went to Noodles and Co., worked on her budget and did a Bible study on Esther.  As mom and daughter we don't spent too much time together so when we do it's great.  I left dh home cutting the grass.  This is the first grass cutting of the season.  It smelled good when I got home.  Nothing  says spring more than freshly cut grass!  Tomorrow night we will be back in the basement doing more work.  It's nice to be able to get the walls up and to stand back and admire all your hard work!

Ds called me the other day.  He purchased a BJ's card and wanted if I want his extra one!  He is so sweet and thoughtful.  I  love my children.

Life Can Be So Unreal at Times

There are just no words to describe life sometimes.  Here's why:

last weekend we went to dh's cousin's viewing/funeral.  If that wasn't unreal enough, we found out when we got there that Billy, the one who called me to tell me of his brother's death had a stroke.  That's unreal.  While his parents were at his brother's funeral, their other son had a stroke, unable to talk or lift his arm and leg.  Billy and I were talking about how the good ones die young and Billy said he was still there.  A day later he was at death's door.  We just don't know, do we?  Yesterday we learned that Billy has a tumor on his heart (or in his heart) and he was being transferred to a different hospital.  I haven't had an update today, but my thoughts are with them all. 

There were two songs the family had played.  One is Life Ain't Always Beautiful:
Life ain't always beautiful
Sometimes it's just plain hard
Life can knock you down, it can break your heart

Life ain't always beautiful
You think you're on your way
And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day

But the struggles makes you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has its own way of takin' it sweet time

[chorus]
No,life aint always beautiful
Tears will fall sometimes
Life aint always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride

Life aint always beautiful
Some days I miss your smile
I get tired of walkin' all these lonely miles

And I wish for just one minute
I could see your pretty face
Guess I can dream, but life don't work that way


But the struggles makes me stronger
And the changes make me wise
And happiness has its own way of takin' its sweet time

No, life ain't always beautiful
But I know I'll be fine
Hey, life ain't always beautiful
But its a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride

The other song was If Heaven by Andy Griggs:
If heaven was an hour, it would be twilight
When the fireflies start their dancin on the lawn
And suppers on the stove and mammas laughin
And everybodys workin day is done

If heaven was a town it would be my town
On a summer day in 1985
And everything i wanted was out there waiting
And everyone i loved was still alive

Chorus:
Dont cry a tear for me now baby
There comes a time we must all say goodbye
And if thats what heavens made of
You know i ain't afraid to die

If heaven was a pie it would be cherry
Cool and sweet and heavy on your tongue
And just one bite would satisfy your hunger
And hered always be enough for everyone

If heaven was a train it sure would be a fast one
That could take this weary travler round the bend
And if heaveb was a tear it'd be my last one
And youd be in my arms again

Chorus:
Dont cry a tear for me now baby
There comes a time we must all say goodbye
And if that's what heaven's made of
You know i ain't afraid to die

What sad songs. 

We need to live life as if this is our last day, however, being human I don't think we know how to do that.  We never really believe we will die...I mean, we know it's possible, but it happens to others, right? 

On another note Miss Puma had her ear surgery today.  I think she is deaf in one ear now.  Stitches in her ears, antibiotics for weeks, a stupid one of those collars around her neck...oh boy.  She is staying the night at the vets tonight. 

I'm so tired.  I took Miss Puma to the vets early this morning, then I went to the pregnancy clinic to volunteer.  I stayed there until around 1:30, stopped and eat lunch, then I came home, chilled out for awhile and then off the bible study.  I'm not used to days like that anymore.

That's all for now.