Today

 There is so much to write about, yet there isn't.  Day after day life is the same.  Nothing changes.  Well, sometimes things change but they really aren't happy changes.  At least not in my life.

Since my last entry I have been sick with upper respiratory infections a couple more times.  I feel like this is going to be my life now.  On top of being diagnosed with Eosinophilic Esophagitis, vertigo my health is going downhill in a hay basket as they say.  I don't even know what a hay basket is.

So, food prices have gone sky high so we decided to start going to the food bank.  I was embarrassed at first, but I'm not now.  Well, I didn't actually go, hubby went.  He reported back one day that there was a man who went to the food bank to get food for his chickens and dog.  Seriously?  He also reported that people in BMW's were showing up getting food.  Now in my day, food banks were for people who absolutely were poor and needed food.  I have given to the food banks in my younger days thinking I was helping very poor people.  Not so today.  We have been eating food bank meals for a couple of months.  It's okay.  We are still having a hard time paying the bills.  It's really tough.  I don't have any clue how people who get less than us are doing it.  I truly feel for them.

So it's almost Thanksgiving.  We've been invited to two places and I haven't rsvped either one.  Part of me wants to go, but my other half is saying stay home.  I'm afraid being around people will make me sick again.  And my anxiety of getting ready, getting there, socializing, then getting home and worrying about ibs attacks or other bodily function attacks it just makes it all worse thinking about it.  I so want to be a part of the family, yet anxiety makes it so difficult.  And nobody seems to understand at all, which makes it even worse because I have nobody that sympathizes with me....not like a mother would.  

We hired tree people to cut some huge branches off the trees in the back yard.  The yard looks open now...I like it.  We still have to get another tree cut but it will have to wait unless it falls on the house before then...which won't be good.  

Since winter is coming I can already feel depression setting in.  Wish I was like a bear and just slept the winters away.  I wonder what bears think when they wake up in the spring.  Do they dream during their long winter slumbers?  I read that bears thyroids slow down during winter which is the reason they go to sleep.  If human doctors would take advise from the animals humans could probably be cured of so many things.  How is it that animal medicine is top notch but human medicine isn't?  I don't know.

I guess that's all for now.

Blessings,

Bev 

Just an Update With Some Thoughts

 So many times I thought about writing something here, but then I'd get so tired and my brain just wouldn't work.  It used to be my thyroid that kept me from doing things because I'd be so tired, but I believe my vestibular issues are the root of the problem now.  My eyes are the only thing keeping me vertical and in the middle of the day my eyes get so tired, too.  I guess I have to realize that these bodies of ours are dying little by little and things go wrong.  But it's so sad that we can't replace or grow new parts so we can live forever.  

This is what my plants are saying to me!

This year I was not planning on putting in a vegetable garden.  But DH said do it because it's one thing I enjoy doing....yes, I do, but when plants don't grow it's really frustrating.  I spend so much money getting dirt and so much time and physical labor, yet here we are almost July and nothing!  I am the worse gardner..I'm telling you.  I'm pretty sure I bought the wrong kind of dirt.  I'm just too tired to care about it anymore.  I was all for it in the beginning, but I'm tired and just don't care.  If the stores run out of food, I think we might starve to death.  I don't have that much in storage, although I am trying to build a stockpile.  *sigh*

The last entry I made I was telling you how sick I was.  After I got over bronchitis, I got a sinus infection.  And then, our granddaughter gave us the stomach flu.  DH was really sick from it, I felt bad, but didn't get it as bad as he did.  And last week, granddaughter caught the hand foot and mouth disease.  Her temp got up to 103.3! I felt so bad for her.  I think she is better now.  She is going to the beach this weekend with her parents and other grandparents.  

And guess who broke another bone??  DH!  Broke a bone in his heel.  doctor wants him to stay in a wheelchair for 8 to 10 weeks! And I am suppose to push him around in it according to dh, according to dr.  Don't even get me started on that one.  

We don't rv since we had to sell it and we don't ride our motorcycles since dh can't do that anymore.  And since his lost his job due to his broken leg we don't have any funds left over to do much of anything.  It's really sad.  I could never believe life could be so boring.  Everyday it's the same thing.  I wash dishes, cook and do laundry.  We go nowhere.  Oh, and gas prices are so high who can afford to just drive around with no reason?  

I guess this is all I gotta say for now.

Blessings,

Bev