Time flies by so fast and I know I have said that many times, but it amazes me how I think something happened a short while ago, but nope. We are getting old (husband and I) and our health in going by the wayside. It’s getting harder to get through a day. Whoever came up with “Golden Years” was a liar unless he had great health and lots and lots of money. Otherwise, I’d like to meet him and tell him he is wrong.
One day in March 2017 it was a normal day until the phone rang. It was hubby at work saying he went to get up from his desk and couldn’t. He broke his femur bone at the knee. Long story short, I had to go get him, take him to the ER and it’s been a nightmare since. Four operations later his leg is fused so he can’t bend it. He can’t drive. He walks with crutches, he lost his job. That day changed our lives forever. I was mad, angry and missing our old life. No more can we RV. I have to do all the driving now. I have to do most of the chores. *sigh*
Hubby had to go on SSDI. And because he was on that I was also eligible to get a little money, too. But when your salary is cut to bare bones your lifestyle is too. Now it’s worry about everything.
Mostly since 2017, things have been focused on hubby and his health, but last year in October (2019) I woke up with the room spinning. Hubby called an ambulance as I had collapsed on the floor. And the long and story of that is ER dr said I had vertigo. So off to the ENT, audiologists, VRT (vertigo rehabilitation therapy), neurologist and soon to see a eye doctor who specializes in eye problems. And symptoms with this disorder include 24 hour nausea, dizziness, feeling like you are seasick and walking on a trampoline all the time. I never even knew this disorder existed. And what has shocked me even more is how many people are suffering with it. Of course, I went to facebook groups just to see if there was a group of vestibular disorders and yes there was. People all around the world and yet hardly any of us are being diagnosed properly. I have little faith in the medical profession these days. Google can tell me more about my problems then a man or woman who spend years in school supposingly learning how to medically treat people. But don’t get me started on that. Anyway, I had to quit driving for a couple of months, but thank the Good Lord my kids were able to get us to doctor appointments and such. I told my son this is why people need to have a lot of kids...so us old parents have tons of children to rely on and not burn them all out at one time! LOL. Most days I just wanna give up, though and not get out of bed, but I remind myself I need to find purpose in the day and that is why I DO get up and even if it’s to wash clothes or cook a meal. I have to keep pushing on.
Our son bought his own house. He was living with us, too but we had to convert the family room into a bedroom for him. He was here about a year or so and it was wonderful having the kids back home and we were all together. I don’t care how old they get it is always grand to have the kids around. It’s just too bad we don’t have a large parcel of land where we can build houses for each of the kids and we could be close to one another like back in the days of farming. But with technology these days we can talk with each other and video chat if we want to. And that’s the next best thing to having them here.
So this is kind of our four year update. I’m hoping to start updating here more.
Blessings!
Bev
