Tuesday, August 28, 2012

When People Hate on You

In elementary school it's not unusual for friends to come and go.  When you're older you expect it.  But when you're an adult and have been good friends with people, then out of the blue they hate on you, it's leaves you in a whirlwind.  And it not only happens with friends, I've recently had family hate on me, too.  This is why I've never had real friends.  It will always end up with them hating on me. 

Friends who claim to be Christian disturbs me more than family members who don't know the Lord.  Christians are suppose to be able to work out their differences then move on.  Never happens that way, though.  They are the worse ones that WON'T talk it out when a disagreement happens.  It's worse when they lie and won't admit they lied.  But you know what?  The truth will always come out sooner or later.  And that's why I don't let lies that ex-friends tell bother me. 

So for now I leave it all in the hands of the Lord.  He'll deal with those who distort the truth. 
Blessings,
Bekay

Saturday, August 18, 2012

Hello Y'all!

I know I've been absent for a long time.  I finally got over my strep.  Days in bed, depression; it's hard to get up and get living again when depression sets in.  I'm really a shell of who I was in my younger days. With small children my life was full of activities and places to go and things to do.  These days, not so much.  I have struggled to go places even for my own pleasure such as shopping or whatever.  But the thing with me is that I've never really gone places by myself.  I know that's sad to say, but I went from living with my parents and siblings to being married and having a husband to do things with.  And then the children came along and then I had them to go places with so I've never really done things on my own, by myself.  For example, I've never been to the beach by myself, ever. I've never driven long distances by myself.  I realize how sheltered and how much I stay in my comfort zone.  However, by doing that {living in a comfort zone} I feel like I'm not living a life that I could be living. 

I'm going to try and turn over a new leaf.  I have to or I'll go crazy...not literally.  There comes a time in one's life where they have to take the bull by the horns, you know? 

So on another note, our dd got moved into the basement.  I did mention we have been renovating the basement for the last year, doing all the work ourselves, and dd got moved in last month.  Of course there is still  little things that need doing such as trim work and we just had the kitchen counter tops installed.  They look beautiful.  I'll post pictures as soon as the kitchen it done. 
Here are before and after pictures of the bathroom:



Bathroom before


New toilet, floor and moulding with marble trim around the shower

New bathroom sink, mirror and lights

New shower
Dd unpacking her bathroom stuff

It's exciting to see what was compared to the what now, knowing all the hard, hard work that we've done to get here.  Poor dh, he dd ALOT of the work, but oh my...the arguing that we always do when we are working on a project is crazy.  I watch this show called Renovation Realities and it makes me laugh so hard sometimes because that is dh and me when we are doing a project. 

We've lived in this house for 34 years.  We've built a family room, a garage and master bedroom.  Dh did all the work himself.  Of course, I've done what I could when I could and after all those projects {ooops; we've also redone the kitchen a couple of times because of water leakage} so we've been through tons of major home improvement projects together.  With renovating the basement I've learned when I get to that point of explosion I need to walk away from it.  That helps me and helps dh! LOL

It's no secret that my life has been off track for years.  I do the bare necessities in the house.  It's sad but true, but I really want to start living the life I had before; before depression hit me and my thyroid went way downhill. 

Therefore, I'm putting together a home management binder with daily goals.  I've youtubed a lot of videos on it, but the more I'm figuring what I want to put in it the more I think it's a personal planner for me.  Since I don't really have kids and dh could care less about looking into a notebook for personal goals, I'm thinking it's not going to be a home management binder than more a personal goal book for me.  Just throwing around some ideas in my head.  We'll see how this turns out!

Blessings,
BeKay