I was wondering. This used to be 'the' forum back in the day. People making money on their blogs but I never knew how to do it. I would love to start making some money, though. I guess I would have to decide what type of blog I really wanted it to be. I'm more of a daily, family, diary type blogger, though. I write what I know.
We were blessed with our second grandaughter last May. Being grandparents is not something you can describe. One doesn't understand what it's like being a parent until they are one. Same with grandparenting. You just don't realize the love you have for grandchildren until they arrive and it's a love you didn't know you had in you. I always wanted to live on a piece of property where all my children and I could live so we'd be close to each other, but that didn't work out. We aren't too far from each other, but it would be nice to have the grandkids run next door to your house, you know? Well, at least I think it would. They do have a lot of energy, though, where my energy is about run out. I understand old people now.
I was thinking it would be fun to put some photos on here about the clothes I made when I was a teenager. I don't sew hardly at all anymore. I was a passion of mine, but like all things and especially after my vertigo it's been hard focusing my eyes. And when I was younger, it was a challenge, something to be proud of to finish your work, your art, but now I guess I've done it so much that it feels more like a chore. As sad as that is to say... I mean, it is sad to say that something that sparked or motivated you now feels humdrum and a big chore to do. I just don't have the brain power anymore.
In fact, over the last eight years I have found life in general very difficult. Having to pick up the slack for hubby who, remember, broke himself up and lost his job has taken a huge toll on me. I know I am not the only spouse in this world turning into a caregiver. And when you say your vows when you are in your twenties and the whole world is at your feet, you'd say yes to anything. But when it comes right down to it, caregiving sucks the life out of you. And it has me.
Last September 27th, on my son's birthday, we had our Maddee put to sleep. She was having liver issues and vets thought it was cancer. She stopped eating, too. I still haven't gotten over it. My son bought me a wrist band with Maddee's picture on it and I haven't taken it off since. I still love looking at her and every night wishing I could hear her paw prints coming down the hallway. Her death has really affected me. It feels like I have lost another child. I had Maddee two years longer than my own daughter. Maddee gave us such joy and happiness. I hope to see her again when I die. Sitting there with my other family members....that would be great joy!
I didn't want another dog. But hubby kept saying 'if we get another dog' and I kept saying no we aren't but then he'd say her name will be Betsy. Ugh....how do I find a space in my heart for another dog. It will feel like I am replacing my Maddee Girl. But I went online looking for Beagles and I found one that was three hours from our house. Her name was Birdie. She is a Beagle/Blue Tick. Her mom was a beagle but her dad was a mix of blue tick hound x. I was hoping she'd have the traits of a beagle but she doesn't have much. She is quite different than Maddee. She has eased her way into my heart but Maddee still lives there. She the original owners called her Birdie. We call her Betsy.
