I suppose other people go through this, too. But sometimes I feel as if I can do anything I set my mind to; other times I know I can't. And it's most of those times I continually disappoint myself. For instance, since October I've been taking a course for becoming a counselor at the pregnancy center. However, I know I can't commit myself to doing that. There's a couple of reasons for this. First, I suffer from anxiety attacks. Praise God I haven't had really, really bad ones recently like I have had in the past, but I still feel the panic come on when I'm in certain situations. I'm afraid that if I make a committment and people depend on me wholeheartedly, then I can't measure up, hence the anxiety. Second, I'm not sure I could handle talking to women who are abortion minded that, even after I talk with them, they continued to abort her child anyway. I would be so upset. I've heard where some sonographers are the last people to see some children alive before they are aborted. How very sad. So, those are two reasons why I know I couldn't be a counselor. I think I would like to volunteer to file paperwork or do something with fundraising, maybe. I just don't know.
Empowered, not empowered. Hmm.