I bought a book today of how to destress your life...little things you can do to get rid of the junk that eats at you (and the people that hate on you). As I was reading through it just brought things that I used to do when dh and I was first married. When one gets married they have the whole world as a slate...dreams, goals, etc. On the other end of being married for so long, all those things are behind ya. But by acomplishing all those dreams and goals comes junk with it. And slowly, one loses who they were and little things in life that made them happy. What I'm saying is that dh and I used to walk through the woods behind our house and scratch things on trees when we were newlyweds. Now, dh is handicapped and can hardly walk, so we don't do that anymore. It's those little things such as this that I talk about. But, those are the things that were enjoyable and over the years have come to a close. It's like waking up one day and finding yourself in another world. It's like what happened?
So I was thinking about I was reading through this book how nice it would be to just get back to the basics of life. For instead, I used grow a large garden and can my food. I don't do it anymore. I used to sew my kids clothes...I don't do that anymore because they are grown now. I used to be sufficient; never really buying things I could grow or make myself, but that's not me anymore. I have lost myself.
As I read through this book, I wanna get back to ME! I need to shake of the dust and find ME underneath!