When the Ice Cream Cravings Strike...

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Friday Night at the County Fair!

Just about every year we go to the county fair.  It's the oldest fair in Maryland...celebrating it's 170th birthday this year.  Since the fair almost always starts on dd's birthday {9-6}, it was kinda birthday thing we did for dd.  But dh's and my anniversary is on the 9th {34 years this year!} so going to the fair kinda celebrates two birds with one stone.  Hahah.  Tonight we went.  Dh's cousin works the fair and whenever he sees us we get in for free.  That's awesome! 

First thing we did tonight at the fair was to get our fair hot dogs.  I always have to get one.  I don't really know why I think those hot dogs taste better than any others. 

I always enjoy looking at the crafts and picking up information about our county services. We usually get free pens, pencils, bag clips which are very useful items around here.  This year we got a lot of nicer stuff than we've gotten before.  Dh got a free wind up flashlight; I got a alarm/calculator clock, reusable bags and all the usual pens, pencils, bag clips...all for free!  I love free things. 

Starting Over

I bought a book today of how to destress your life...little things you can do to get rid of the junk that eats at you (and the people that hate on you).  As I was reading through it just brought things that I used to do when dh and I was first married.  When one gets married they have the whole world as a slate...dreams, goals, etc.  On the other end of being married for so long, all those things are behind ya.  But by acomplishing all those dreams and goals comes junk with it.  And slowly, one loses who they were and little things in life that made them happy.  What I'm saying is that dh and I used to walk through the woods behind our house and scratch things on trees when we were newlyweds.  Now, dh is handicapped and can hardly walk, so we don't do that anymore.  It's those little things such as this that I talk about.  But, those are the things that were enjoyable and over the years have come to a close.  It's like waking up one day and finding yourself in another world.  It's like what happened?

So I was thinking about I was reading through this book how nice it would be to just get back to the basics of life.  For instead, I used grow a large garden and can my food.  I don't do it anymore.  I used to sew my kids clothes...I don't do that anymore because they are grown now.  I used to be sufficient; never really buying things I could grow or make myself, but that's not me anymore.  I have lost myself.

As I read through this book, I wanna get back to ME!  I need to shake of the dust and find ME underneath!

Blessings,

Bekay

When People Hate on You

In elementary school it's not unusual for friends to come and go.  When you're older you expect it.  But when you're an adult and have been good friends with people, then out of the blue they hate on you, it's leaves you in a whirlwind.  And it not only happens with friends, I've recently had family hate on me, too.  This is why I've never had real friends.  It will always end up with them hating on me. 

Friends who claim to be Christian disturbs me more than family members who don't know the Lord.  Christians are suppose to be able to work out their differences then move on.  Never happens that way, though.  They are the worse ones that WON'T talk it out when a disagreement happens.  It's worse when they lie and won't admit they lied.  But you know what?  The truth will always come out sooner or later.  And that's why I don't let lies that ex-friends tell bother me. 

So for now I leave it all in the hands of the Lord.  He'll deal with those who distort the truth. 

Blessings,

Bekay

Hello Y'all!

I know I've been absent for a long time.  I finally got over my strep.  Days in bed, depression; it's hard to get up and get living again when depression sets in.  I'm really a shell of who I was in my younger days. With small children my life was full of activities and places to go and things to do.  These days, not so much.  I have struggled to go places even for my own pleasure such as shopping or whatever.  But the thing with me is that I've never really gone places by myself.  I know that's sad to say, but I went from living with my parents and siblings to being married and having a husband to do things with.  And then the children came along and then I had them to go places with so I've never really done things on my own, by myself.  For example, I've never been to the beach by myself, ever. I've never driven long distances by myself.  I realize how sheltered and how much I stay in my comfort zone.  However, by doing that {living in a comfort zone} I feel like I'm not living a life that I could be living. 

I'm going to try and turn over a new leaf.  I have to or I'll go crazy...not literally.  There comes a time in one's life where they have to take the bull by the horns, you know? 

So on another note, our dd got moved into the basement.  I did mention we have been renovating the basement for the last year, doing all the work ourselves, and dd got moved in last month.  Of course there is still  little things that need doing such as trim work and we just had the kitchen counter tops installed.  They look beautiful.  I'll post pictures as soon as the kitchen it done. 

Here are before and after pictures of the bathroom:






Bathroom before



New toilet, floor and moulding with marble trim around the shower

New bathroom sink, mirror and lights

New shower

Dd unpacking her bathroom stuff

It's exciting to see what was compared to the what now, knowing all the hard, hard work that we've done to get here.  Poor dh, he dd ALOT of the work, but oh my...the arguing that we always do when we are working on a project is crazy.  I watch this show called Renovation Realities and it makes me laugh so hard sometimes because that is dh and me when we are doing a project. 

We've lived in this house for 34 years.  We've built a family room, a garage and master bedroom.  Dh did all the work himself.  Of course, I've done what I could when I could and after all those projects {ooops; we've also redone the kitchen a couple of times because of water leakage} so we've been through tons of major home improvement projects together.  With renovating the basement I've learned when I get to that point of explosion I need to walk away from it.  That helps me and helps dh! LOL

It's no secret that my life has been off track for years.  I do the bare necessities in the house.  It's sad but true, but I really want to start living the life I had before; before depression hit me and my thyroid went way downhill. 

Therefore, I'm putting together a home management binder with daily goals.  I've youtubed a lot of videos on it, but the more I'm figuring what I want to put in it the more I think it's a personal planner for me.  Since I don't really have kids and dh could care less about looking into a notebook for personal goals, I'm thinking it's not going to be a home management binder than more a personal goal book for me.  Just throwing around some ideas in my head.  We'll see how this turns out!

Blessings,

BeKay 

Coughing Now!

 This is me!!  I'm coughing and having coughing fits so bad I well...you know.  This is horrible.  I'm tired of all of this.  And I have jury duty this week...well, I have to see if I have jury duty.  This is why I hate getting sick.  I'm not one of those positive people who can shrug off things.  When things happen to me I go into a tailspin.  I don't know why I'm like that, I just am.  Dd and I were talking about this tonight.  We were talking about the boy who had his arm chewed off by an alligator, yet has a great positive respond.  He says he's glad it wasn't his friend.  I WISH I was like that. 

There is more stuff I'd like to post, but I'm still coughing and mentally can't get my thoughts together.  Will post when I feel better.

Oh my....sick again!

Life is getting messy again.  The last three weeks I've been coughing and the left side of my throat has hurt.  I have jury duty next week (that's another story) and I don't want to sit there and cough my head off, although, I'm having faith in God that my number won't show up and I won't even have to show up.  But, I went to the emergency clinic last week hoping they could give me something to clear up my cough, the dr said it was allergies and told me to take over the counter allergy meds.  Now, before I went to the clinic I had already made an appointment with my regular doctor but they couldn't get me in (so they say) for four days.  That's why I went to the emergency clinic.  Thank goodness I did not cancel my gp's appointment.  I went in yesterday; by this time my nose was running life a faucet; I was (am) miserable.  They did a throat culture and I came up positive for strep.  I don't get strep throat....but on my goodness.  Who would have thought?  Today I have a headache and chills, sweating...I don't have time for this. 

So I just wanted to check in..will write more later when I'm feeling up to it.

Well, Well, Well, Yes, it's Me Again!

It's funny how time flies...it really is.  The older I get the more one day runs into the next. 

I can give a report on my container garden and well, it's kind of a failure.  The poor cucumbers and squash have just about shrivelled up.  I have two tiny cucumbers in my frig right now, but I'm really disappointed.  I watered those plants everyday, too.  They had the best soil, sun light, so I don't know why they have no done well.  And my pepper plants are about two feet tall and no peppers.  Strange.  My neighbors plants are about the same way.  The plants are beautiful, but no veggies.  Go figure. I'll have to take a picture of them tomorrow. 

I think I might have mentioned that dd is moving into our basement apartment and we have been renovating since the first of the year.  We are still behind in the renovations and we have only two weeks left until she moves in.  Our floor came for the kitchen but it was the wrong floor.  Crazy.  So instead of waiting ten days for the floor it's gonna be twenty days.  I've done about all I can to help, but now it's up to dh to do stuff because I don't have the knowledge.  *sigh*

I've been watching some youtube videos and why do people say 'umm' so much??  When they are explaining something why don't they just say what they wanna say??  Annoying! 

I wanna to check in..will post pictures of the renovations soon.

A Little Update

I wanted to give a little update on things.  First here are pictures of my container garden:

Onions

Onions and cucumbers





peppers



Squash