Depression has a way of holding onto a person and not letting go. I watch those 'depression hurts' commercials on tv and I so feel their pain. It's true about depression..it not only hurts you, your physical well-being but those all around you. It's especially hard in winter when the days are short and dark. Give me the sun and summer any day. I want to see the flowers and green grass. I want to ride in the car with the windows down. I want to grow plants in my garden. But until then, I just plug along and try to get up each day and try to feel like I accomplished something. Even it's only one thing like load the dishwasher. It's pathetic, I know, especially when I was so busy when I was raising kids. I could juggle a hundred different things at one time. When I sit back and think about those days I can even amaze myself at how busy I stayed and how much I loved it all. Now, I wake up and wonder if I can even get one little thing done. I suppose a to do list might help push and motive me. I wonder if I can motive myself to sit and write one everyday..LOL.
Then yesterday I threw my lower back out. It hurts. I've never really had back problems but twice within the last six months my back has gone out. That's all I need is a slipped disc.
DD came down last night to watch the superbowl. I made some little hot doggie things. I cut bite size pieces of hotdogs and wrapped them in dough and we dipped them in mustard. It was good and I will probably make them again.
I have a cat that lives next door. Strange, I know. My neighbor said the cat is not doing so well and now I have to make an appointment to take her to the vet. The cat is twelve years old, too.